After an emotionally drainingQ&A and some brutal home truths, its time for a spiritual shakedown…
Andrew instructs me to stand nextto a square of red blanket on the floor. This, he says, represents the energyof my closed heart. This is my inauthentic masculine energy. “It is where youdo all that frantic achieving but you never embody your success in a way thatenables you to relax,” he says. I step on to the blanket and am told to observewhat is happening in my body. It feels tight, restrictive. Andrewsays that my breathing is shallow. I have a sense of exhaustion. But it also feels safe in manyways. It is pure control.
As I stand on the blanket, Irealise that this is exactly where I am stuck: I want to be open to mytrue feminine essence but I do not know how. I am told to step off theblanket and jump around the room. I have to “shake the energy off”, according toAndrew, who says it is “very sticky”. As I hop around the room a few tears rundown my face. The deeply personal discussions we had earlier delved into some rawand painful issues – traversing anger, hate, resentment, disappointment andheartbreak – and shaking them off feels emotional.
Next I stand beside a yellow blanket. “This is theenergy of the authentic feminine,” explains Andrew. “Rather than a ‘doing’ energy, it is a ‘being’energy. It is about opening the heart wide and receiving. It is an incrediblypowerful energy that is potent without being aggressive. It is the seat of allcreativity.”
I am invited to step on to theblanket and let this energy wash over me. The first thing I am aware of is aprofound stillness. I can see that it is easy to rest in this energy. Andrewspeaks to me and when I answer he reports that my voice has slowed downconsiderably. He says that I am much more in tune with my body.
We look at what it would be likecreating a work project using this energy. Andrew says that he can sense energyflowing up and down my body. I experience a fresh feeling of movement. Nothing isstuck. He explains that many businesswomen have a fear of channelling afeminine essence at work as they worry that they won’t be taken seriously. Infact, he says, the opposite is true – coming from an open, feminine placeis incredibly powerful. People listen to a woman, or a man, with “true power”, as opposed to those harnessing anaggressive or manipulative force that is a front for insecurity and neediness.
The session comes to an end andI’m given homework, but warned that I have to watch my incessant drive. Andrewtells me that every morning I should stand for 2 or 3 minutes on a tea towel and feel my inauthentic masculine energy – the familiar sentiments of “I am too busy”, “I am stressed” and “I am striving to make it all happen”. Then I must shake it out and stand in a space dedicated to authenticfeminine energy. This is the place of receiving, allowing and trusting in myfeminine power. Andrew suggests that I try and harness this before meetings.
As I leave, I ask when I shouldcome back, but Andrew shakes his head. This is a one-time-only sessionwhere he creates an alchemical shift in energy – I am good to go.
I leave feeling calm, centred and with a new clarity. I have accessed a new inner stillness.
The bottom line:
When I arrived, I felt that I had lost a part ofmyself, my feminine business side, and The Modern Day Wizard helped me tore-access it. It really was a corrective emotional experience (CEE). When I look back on the session, it all seems very simple – yet it was also profound. Andrew holds thespace for you to reconnect with your own inner wisdom. His skill is that he isintuitive but practical.
In the weeks since, Ihave been using the technique before meetings to great effect. Andrew’ssimple tool to adjust my behaviour has been really helpful – both personally andin business.